Just another fucked up night

Well i was yelled at again and everything was like normal, though this time she actually made me go to my room, because i actually yelled at her this time. Im so over this i was really steamed. And about half an hour after the whole affair Dave comes upstairs, knocks on my door and demands an answer to why im acting this way towards him, i told him its exactly what i've been telling him for the last, mmmm well how ever long i've been talking. I told him not to speak to me any more, unless its really necessary. I hate talking with him, it's pointless and useless! We're brother and sister, not friends, and i have a feeling thats what he wants..... if its something else i really couldnt care less. I hate Dave and thats as plain and simple as it's going to get.
Well friday nights a no as mum and dad discussed it and agreed it wasn't a good option, but what i didn't get was why mum said 'oh and i also think next saturdays not so good either', i was like WTF, its Emma's 18th bday party, which i was lucky enough to get invited to! Why would that be a bad thing?? I've been to an 18th before! and i put it on the calender at work that i wont be avaliable so WTF!? Mother confuses me to no end!

Anyway about my day, no i didn't say anything, i think telling him somewhere where no one we know will be around, sounds like an awesome idea. So i'll tell him when we catch the bus to boxhill after lunch tomorrow =S I nervous but i'll figure something to say with Tash tomorrow.
I really hope it goes well, because theres no light in my life at the moment, everythings dull and dark..... no wonder im always on fucking edge!

Well i still have some homework to do, so this is where i'll leave you.... no more new photos, but supposedly ALOT of people read this, so hmm, i really only know of a few people who have told me about this, but seriously i dont care if you read it, i do this for a reason..... but come on, theres a little thing down the bottom for a reason..... this is directed at you Nick, u profile stalked =P but seriously the comment love is sweet =)
kisses xoox