My day of slight relaxation

I had period 1 and 4 off today, so i got to sleep in AND go home at lunch. Well i woke up an hour earlier then i wanted to, and woke up to Daves ugly face staring at me while i made my morning tea. I know sibling rivalry is ineviatable, but seriously, HE'S REALLY FUCKING ANNOYING.
I seriously cannot stand to be in his presence any more, all he does is call me a dog (he says when i talk i make dog noises) and tells me the most random fucking shit imaginable. I can't stand it, he's even getting on mums nerves, and thats a hard thing to do unless you've disobeyed her or pissed her off.... I really want Dave to move out, but i know he never will. I'll move out before he does!
Oh and dont even get me fucking started on him calling me depressed! He starts that NOW. I was mopey for like what 3 weeks over the summer holidays and he says that now. I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND! And just now when i say this to mum she says 'Well you probably are, he would know', seriously WTF! I know Daves been depressed and probably still is, but SERIOUSLY.........BAH

Ok thats off my chest but it hasent made me feel any better, and with this whole crush thing! Im giving up as he hasent realised yet, i might tell him, but seriously if he hasent realised, why bother?! I've been told i've been VERY obivious, and that fact he hasent taken the hint maybe shows he doesn't like me that way, so why make things awkard by sharing this feeling i have....
Anyway whatever.........

Well school went pretty fast today as i only had 2 periods, i saw hardly anyone and hardly talked. All i did before school was think thourghly about all the shit that happened so far this year. What happened to this great year i was looking forward to? I really don't understand. I really just want it all to end. Oh and ;et me remind you of the fucking 2 weeks where Dave and I will be alone when mum and dad go to Vietnam, how will i survive. I can't go to friends houses, i'd feel to guilty and i love being at home alone, i just wish they'd take him with them!

Alright thats enough for now...... im still waiting on mum and dads answer about going out on friday with tash n adam and probably nick when i ask..... They have to let me go, otherwise i think i will murder Dave, really the bombs just ticking!